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End
05:52
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Let me embrace you, childhood friend
You'll be with me until the end
Let me embrace you, permanent companion
Until the end
Welcome me at the place we parted
Where I once had you discarded
That place that only we know
That place buried deep inside my soul
You tell me that it just had started
While I'm begging for it all to end
Let me embrace you, childhood friend
You'll be with me until the end
Let me embrace you, permanent companion
Until the end
Make yourself feel at home
Possess my mind, make it your throne
Take my body, expand your reign
You turn hope into desperation
You control my imagination
And I know that you can't die before I do
I wish I were dead, but I'm so scared of dying
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Lo(w)neliness
04:53
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This is the moment those questions arise
That torment me every night
Another moon spent with sticks in my eyes
Illusions are walking outside
The shadow that steps in the middle of the street
Transforms to Your shape as it seems
Searching for answers beneath Your disguise
Ambition confronted with lies
I've witnessed The Master softly losing his mind
I'd comfort Margarita when she broke down and cried
I've tasted Your whip burning guilt in my skin
Now I can't figure out where to end or begin
Confusèd moonlight once broke through the wall
Of clouds surrounding Your lips
You kicked me down and You made me crawl
Destroyed by Your fragile grip
Roses and vampires have their teeth and thorns
Tearing my flesh and my bones
When I am playing the songs that I wrote
I always think I've heard them before
I lived through Jan 14 and the 20th December
I was smothered in my blood when You had me dismembered
I was where the ducks go during cold winter's wind
Now I can't figure out where to end or begin
Tu suces mon sang
Tendre fleur-vampire
Tendre fleur des flammes
Je n'osais jamais cueillir
Quand tes pieds dansent sur le feu brulant
Il n'y reste que de la cendre pour y écrire
La peau déchirée
Les yeux déchirants
Les flammes brutales cachent
Ton imperfection
Il n'y reste que de la cendre pour y écrire
Quand tes pieds dansent sur le feu brulant
I've witnessed The Master softly losing his mind
I'd comfort Margarita when she broke down and cried
I've tasted Your whip burning guilt in my skin
Now I can't figure out where to end or begin
I lived through Jan 14 and the 20th December
I was smothered in my blood when You had me dismembered
I was where the ducks go during cold winter's wind
Now I can't figure out where to end or begin
Mired Sword stuck in Mired Words
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3. |
Jefferson Cars I
01:40
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The needle scratches on the label
For two hours or even more
But I'm too weak to flip the record
The only people I've seen recently
Are the ones selling beer and wine
The elixir of life in one of those nights
And while I cry myself to sleep
Dreaming of good ways to die
I hear the Jefferson Cars driving by
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C17H18F3NO
02:20
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I guess I'm doing fine if I can't feel the sickness
I'm not scared of ghosts like me, immaterial and formless
I sense surprising silence of the siren's choir
The gas station and the lighter are keeping quiet
But please shut your mouth about romance
I've made a whole album without any lovesongs
Some people are dumber, some are more ugly
So how come that I still could never get in?
I've been through the trouble, so mission abort
Until my faith in love is restored
Shut the fuck up about romance
Please shut your mouth, pretty please
Don't have to check my shirts for blood stains
Don't have to help me or to get away
Let's go out tonight, and have a couple of beers
So text me, call me, meet me
The songs of mating birds sound pretty sad when you're lonely
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مها
03:49
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Pressured by the heaviness of these four walls
And as life slips out of my hands, I'm losing control
I've got this world in my head, exposed to myself
In this infinite isolation
I've got this pain in my heart, blade in my hand
Give me a reason not to use it
Losing all hope, I watch dawn plainly fading to night
And I guess what you said in the store room was right
You told me to be me, but the one thing you didn't see
Is that I'm not worthy of being
Leave while you can, before I tie you to me
I want you to be free, I don't want to be your burden
Leave if you want, before you carry my cross
Leave if you must, though I know that I need you
You're the only one that ever understood my mind
The only one out there not to judge me for my kind
You stood by my side when I needed you most
Clinging to every moment
Just like a thief I was stealing your time
I sucked your blood like a leech
Imprisoned by the pressure of my own four walls
Sitting here smoking, feeling nothing at all
I could just walk through the door, but I've got no place to go
In this world full of hatred
سجد لاك روحي و جناني
أستغفراللهة يا حليمة
سجد لاك روحي و جناني
لا اله الا مها
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Tyranorexia
02:58
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I can't take this much longer
You feed off of me, growing stronger
If my death caused You guilt and pain
I'd kill myself right now to watch You drain
Coffee and cigarettes
Antidepressants, laxatives
I can't take this much longer
Parasite feeds off of me, growing stronger
If my death caused You guilt and pain
I'd kill myself right now to watch You drain
Coffee and cigarettes
Antidepressants, laxatives
You keep Your nails sticking inside my eyes
You keep Your teeth sticking inside my throat
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Jefferson Cars II
02:50
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Driving down the sleepless motorway
Driving home at 100 mph
You feel safe on the passenger's seat
The World Is A Beautiful Place on the car radio
We sing along 'though we don't quite know the lyrics
Something in my life feels incomplete
And as we crash into the guide rail
Stealing our time to say goodbye
We don't care for Jefferson Cars driving by
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Mired Sword
03:18
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Depressing silence
Awaking alone in the dark
In an empty bed
Lonely moon travels around the sky
I sympathise
Somnolent
Shaking off the dreams of day and night
Standing there helpless
A supernumerary of my dreams
Anyway, all events fulfil
Cigarette smoke
The tiles in the bathroom reflect my thoughts
Words I don't want to hear
The mirror image
A distorted yet familiar face
And as I rise from the mirror on the wall
I feel everything I saw and heard before
A free man locked in chains
A broken heart ablazed in ice
A virgin swallowing razor blades
A musician with no expression
A writer with imprisoned words
Surrealistic colours of a black and white soul
My black and white soul
But everything is the same
But everything is the same
Hamstrung
Life slips away before my eyes
Where are You to awaken me from this nightmare?
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مها (Pt.2)
06:13
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Goddess of truth, wisdom and clarity
Goddess of beauty, love and sincerity
My unworthy lips whisper a prayer to thy ear
A prayer for guidance through this maze of fear
I broke out of the pressure of my own four walls
The prison my mind had locked me in
You had the key all along, but You couldn't find the hole
And that same old blade's still buried in my skin
We were running in this big field of rye
By some crazy cliff ten stories high
PLayin' some game, remembering our youth
A feeling I never felt before
And You were the catcher in the rye
When the sky was turning flaming red and pink
When Ra's burning ship was about to sink
You caught me and embraced me in the rye
I was breaking down when You caught me in the rye
I can't find You in our embracements anywhere
Sure, Your body's there, but Your spirit's far away
As I inhale the odour of smoke in Your hair
Where are You to guide me through this maze?
I'm lost inside Your forest's hair, I'm lost out on a plain
Where You have abandoned me, tired of my complaints
إنما اشكوا بثي وحزني إلى مها
Turn to me and be gracious to me, I am lonely and afflicted
Goddess of beauty, love and sincerity
Take my hand, guide me towards clarity
I know, I'm not worthy of Thee, but with me You're inflicted
The ambiguity of true love and pure hate
Is omnipresent when You silently stand by my side
Well, You know, I usually don't mind sound's peaceful abscence
But wait! Maze! Another complaint! I need Your sacred advice
The sun and the moon fight for their presence
Why can't Your solar eyes unite both worlds?
You were my personal sun, my solar system circling around Thee,
Circling and circling for what felt like eternity
But stars are also bound to die after a billion years
And Thy supernova threw me out of my orbit
إنما اشكوا بثي وحزني إلى مها
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Borderline
03:38
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Outcasted, all alone I was thrown into this world
A life long full of longing for Your responsible guidance
Craving for Your sympathy and empathetical trust
But You refuse to take me by my scrawny, trembling hands
Is Your sweet surrender to me based on true love and devotion
Or on this "emotion" of nothing but treacherous pity?
I'm Your abiding shadow as we step into the light
I can't feel no embracement, but Your grip's still tight
I wish Your arms were around me as we fall into the night
I can't feel You near me, without a touch Your grip is tight
You made me swear to text You everytime I scrape my skin
And 'though You never answer, now Your phone rings all the time
I wonder what You see in me, but killing pisces is a sin
For 'though they can't express them, their feelings are like Yours and mine
You hold me in this world despite all of its malady
I can't trade You for Nirvana, You're my heartache's therapy
I'm Your abiding shadow as we step into the light
I can't feel no embracement, but Your grip's still tight
I wish Your arms were around me as we fall into the night
I can't feel You near me, without a touch Your grip is tight
I'm Your unwanted servant as we're swallowed by the tide
Tender chains around my neck - pull them tight!
I wish I were Your cigarette as we're dancing to the beat
First I would kiss Your lips, then lie down by Your feet
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I feel deluge bursting out of my wailing eyes
I don't know who it was to commit those sins
I just know that it's me who's going to drown
You apocalyptically approach riding a pale horse
I unfold my arms and You trample me down as Birnam Wood apathetically comes closer tearing down my golden calf, can't You see it has Your lineament? I need something substantial to cling to, and 'though the material is counterfeit, can't You see it has Your lineament? You refuse to pour the matrimony wine, so I scrape Your sacred name into my skin and drip the blood on the ceremony shrine. Whatever ritual I may perform cannot petition Your mind
Bury me under empty bottles and cigarette stubs
Make sure nobody comes to my funereal
I couldn't bear the phoniness
Of the "remembering" minute silence
Red eyes, red blood, red wine
Will You decide to read the signs
Of my surrender to a slow decline?
Kiss me kindly, sink into my skin
Take the pain away, make me feel again
Devoted death wish makes me feel alive
Razor blade, lovebites that never fade
Kisses from the edge, lovebites that never fade
Constructing a road inside my lungs
Leading me to something more than this
And the smoke manifests to a phantom
I try to speak to You
And You dissolve like a dream
Red eyes, red blood, red wine
Will You decide to read the signs of my surrender to a slow decline?
I sought shelter in an insane asylum and became the Master's best friend
I cheered with Margarita at Satan's great ball, now there's nothing left to do but awaiting the end. Numbing my sensitivity, drunk on poetry and enlightened by beer, with wine for blood and vodka for tears, pure spirit in the image of a high priest in the cathedral of hugging trees' arms, by the altar at the river shore, listening to my confession, speaking his blessings over me
Bury me in a secluded tomb of razor blades
Make sure to lay flowers on my grave
I couldn't bear Your sadness
Maha, wipe the tears away and smile!
Red eyes, red blood, red wine
Will You decide to read the signs
Of my surrender to a slow decline?
Bury me in a secluded tomb of razor blades
Make sure to lay flowers on my grave
I couldn't bear Your phoniness
Maha, wipe the tears away and smile!
Red eyes, red blood, red wine
Will You decide to read the signs
Of my surrender to a slow decline?
The only kind of love that I've ever encountered
Is the one that can't come back to me
So stop messing around with this thing You call "Karma"
While I picture Buddha chilling alone in Nirvana
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O musa moritura, te adire peto. Da mi basium postremum ore puellae sacrae. Cantus ultimus cantandus est.
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13. |
Beginning
02:58
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Is this what you hoped for? Is this what you craved?
There is now way for anyone to be saved
You can't expect no mercy, can't expect no love
There is no use in praying to your deaf Lord above
Rain's the only thing that's ever heaven's sent
This is the beginning of the end
Everyone to their loved ones, ask them for forgivness
If you hid your love for her, now's the time! Confess!
You may call it Armaggedon, you may call it doomsday,
You may call it apocalypse, death don't care what you say
You might not be willing to ever understand
This is the beginning of the end
Naked children on the streets crying for their parents
While some folks are still waiting for the judgement to commence
Somehow they did not realise that G-d died long ago
Death angels are happily dancing to and fro
For those sleeping on a park bench or in the Holy Land
This is the beginning of the end
Everything has changed its shape, the rivers are blood red
The colour of the sweetest love now fills me with regret
There was lots of love inside me, couldn't let it out
Lilac withered, roses shrivered, people scream and shout
Love is the salvation, once we had it in our hands
This is the beginning of the end
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